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Kaestner: The Final Blog
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Release: 05/31/2011
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DURHAM, N.C.The Duke women’s lacrosse team ended its season with a 15-5 overall record and advanced to the NCAA semifinals for the sixth time in program history. Check out Christie Kaestner’s final blog below.

Here it is,

The time has come the walrus said, to speak of many things…of shoes, and ships, and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings…and why the sea is boiling hot and whether pigs have wings. Do you believe in fairy tales? It wasn’t a fairy tale ending, but it was certainly a fairy tale journey. The Final Four -- a place only the seniors had been to and a place we led our team to this year. A plane ride with the UNC team…practices…dinners…gifts from NCAA…a banquet…and a defeat at the hands of Maryland, and suddenly your life’s journey comes to a screeching halt and veers strongly in another direction. As a senior, just like that years of hard work, passion, dedication and sacrifice crumble with a final whistle. You think, in stunned silence, as you kneel on the turf, what now? At 11:11, what do I wish for, now that the opportunity to win it all has disappeared? How do you part with a lifestyle that you can’t dream of living without? Then you realize, hours later, that all you can think about are the incredible memories and they play like a highlight reel on a repeat loop through your head even when you close your eyes…

We had to put on a strong face after our loss to Maryland in the Final Four in order to sign autographs for fans. I had managed to stop the flow tears when suddenly three little girls walked up, posters in hand, excited smiles on their face and said, “Good job today, you rock!” I replied, “Thank you for coming girls. Do you play lacrosse? How old are you?” –“Yes, we do! We’re ten and we love Duke.” I heard myself respond, “I was once just like you doing the exact same thing. I wanted to be here and here I am. You can do this too.” BAM -- I instantly started sobbing again. I scared the daylights out of those poor girls. But the point is this, how lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard? To fall in love with a place that fell right in love back? I know what it is that makes me want to never leave…it’s the way the cherry blossom trees bloom along Whitford Drive the first week of March; the chapel, all lit up over the treeline when I’m driving up Moreene Rd; the way the sun sets over the bleachers at Koskinen Stadium, turning pink, orange and purple; hearing the ringing in my ears after listening to the deafening Cameron Crazies for a basketball game; the way the snow looks falling in the Wallace Wade Stadium lights at night; hearing the chapel bells play Christmas music at 5:00 during final exam week in December; but most of all -- I know it is Duke Lacrosse. How do you put into words something that has shaped your life so dramatically? For all you alums, you know the feeling. When you can’t take off your jersey for 24 hours because you want Duke across your chest forever…

I wish I could be funnier in this one, make your tears stop and make you smile instead. This is my 31st blog and by far the hardest one to write. This opportunity given to me by Kerstin has given me more insight into my own life than I ever anticipated. What a journey I got to document -- to reflect every week on the details that define Duke Lax, and my senior year. A tradition of Duke Lax is to rewrite lyrics to songs for pump ups. This time, I’ve chosen to give you a taste with a song that sums up this blogging adventure. Here’s the deal -- read the lyrics in tune to the song (you can sing them if you want-it works better) and enjoy. Here’s a link -- I’m pretty sure you’ve all heard this song…

It’s 3 o’clock on a Wednesday
The Duke lax team takes a lap
There’s Kerstin standing on the field
Telling us we’ll win with a clap

She says team you can get us a victory
You all know how to play
Cuz you’re talented, deep, and you’re quick on your feet
And you wear Duke upon your chest

La la la di da da
La la di di da da dum

Write us a piece you’re the blog woman
Write us a story today
Cuz we’re all in the mood for a memory
And we love what you’ve got to say

Now the senior class is a part of me
We’ve been through it all at Duke
We walk through the quad and we go to events
And there’s no place that we’d rather be
We say, “Damn this school is incredible!”
With a smile as we look about
Well I’m sure that it won’t get better than this
As we know without a doubt

Oh, la la la di da da
La la, di da da da dum

Now I’ve told you many funny things
Chopping wood, alumnae and more
Concerts and airports, holidays of all sorts
I hope I was never a bore

And the real world looms like the Death Star
But there’s time for a blog, or a song
Yes we’ve shared a drink called adventure
And I’m glad that you followed along

(Repeat Chorus)

You’ve been a great crown for an amateur
I’m humbled by all that you’ve said,
Cuz I know that it’s me you’ve been looking to read
I just hope you now know us some more
And the chapel, it sounds like it’s calling me
And Koskinen feels like my heart
And forever Dukies, we will never be gone
No matter to where on earth we part

That’s all folks. It has been my honor and privilege to entertain you with the goings on of Duke Lacrosse. A true Dukie, I will never be too far away. My email is should you ever need to get in touch. Sending endless love from the Class of 2011- Sarah Bullard, Virginia Crotty, Caroline Spearman, Miller Hughes and myself. What’s next for us? St. Lucia for a week! Like I wrote in an inscription in a book to baby Claire, should you ever need to find us, Kerstin will know where we are. In case I don’t see you, good afternoon, good evening and goodnight.

Love, lax, hidden talents and bleeding Duke blue,

-Christie Kaestner, #7-

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